Young deaths.

Seems like every year, there’s a passing of a young soul appearing on the newspaper.

This time, it happened a little too close to home (much like the 2007 dragon boat accident). A friend of Ben was killed in camp during a vehicle servicing.

I’ve met the guy a couple of times in the West area. He was extremely good looking (enough to put some celebrities to shame) and friendly. Probably the most impressionable thing about him was his smile. It was charming, amiable, and just plain gorgeous.

Give him a few more years as an adult, some body building and he might be a top model.

But now, he’ll remain forever 21.

What can be worse than having parents bury their own child?

Even my parents, who are total strangers, felt pity and sorrow for his death after reading off the newspaper.

I’ve heard too many deaths these past few years. Too many teenagers, too many adolescent, too many NSF, and too many young adults being buried in this decade. Be it from an accident, murder, or from suicide.

There’re just too many deaths these days.

Deaths of people who are of the same age group as me, or younger than me.

Makes you wonder… What’s the most important thing in life?

It’s just… your own life.

Cherish it.

Our life is a gift.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!

Today, as I logged into my FB page, there was this "1" highlighting my inbox. Thinking that it was just another message from a group or a friend, I clicked, glanced at the mail sender and my jaws hit the floor.

It was from HIM!!! YUTAKI HIMSELF!!!!

HE REPLIED MY FACEBOOK MESSAGE!!!!

OH.MY.GOD.

(Pardon my language)

For the first time in years (the last being the 5566 concert in 2005 when I saw Wang Ren Fu within meters), I felt this burst of excitement and adrenaline flush my face as I typed a response back to him, complete with my rusty and pathetically basic Japanese.

*sigh in satisfaction*

I feel young again....

Vote for Yutaki!!!!!!

Whee!!! Yutaki's back on screen, this time as one of the final 20 contestants for the 星光大道PK - Singapore representatives!!!!

Vote for him!!!

http://onemillionstar.starhub.com/vote.php

Yutaki is at number 17. Unlimited votes!!!

(He looks just so cute with that 乖乖 look) ^o^

Boyfriend's birthday gift

Quick update!

Here's a picture of what my boyfriend got for me!!!!



Picture's rather bad, cos I used my handphone's camera. The camera quality one is with boyfriend as of now.

Nice nice nice?

Maybe I should shut down this blog and go back to diaries

Really... I have half a good mind to shut down this blog.

This is a place for me to vent, for me to release any feelings that's built up in my heart, for me to release my pressure before it explodes inside myself and I admit myself to IMH for having a mental breakdown.

I don't get it, is it a sin that I phrase things EXACTLY the way I felt at the time?

Is it wrong to put so much emotions into what I write?!

Is it wrong for me to put myself into what I write?

All I'm asking for is a pressure release.

All I'm asking for is a place for me to express my frustration, my confusion, written out, so I can go back again and start analyzing it from a 3rd person's point of view.

I don't understand why people are biting on the unhappy things I wrote, making me more upset, and they don't even bother to notice the good, happy memories I wrote in my blog.

Maybe I should go back to writing diaries. At least diaries don't result in people asking me questions about things that drive me up the wall.

Golden Point Award 2009

When the GPA comes around the corner, I can feel a voice screaming inside me, for me to take 1 month no-pay-leave and to stay at home to do nothing but to write.

Write feverishly.

Write hysterically.

Write with all the experience I’ve garnered bit by bit over the past 6 years.

Obviously, I wasn’t that dumb to listen to that nonsensical voice, (at least, about the NPL part), but I did start on my short story entry for this GPA 2009 competition.

*jam brakes*

What’s GPA?

Ah… here’s the quote from the official website:

The SPH-NAC Golden Point (SPH-NAC GPA) Award 2009 is Singapore’s national and premier creative writing competition. The SPH-NAC GPA is held in conjunction with the Singapore Writers Festival (SWF), the nation’s only major literary event and one of the few literary festivals in Asia that is multi-lingual. The Singapore Writers Festival (SWF) and the SPH-NAC GPA is co-organised by the National Arts Council and The Arts House. Singapore Press Holdings and Singapore Press Holdings Foundation are also the Official Sponsors for SWF 2009.

Started in 1993 to promote the art of creative writing in the four major languages of Singapore – English, Malay, Mandarin and Tamil – it is the only national literary writing competition to have two main categories – short story and poetry – in every language.

Aims of the GPA:
• Identify new creative writing talent
• Promote the art of creative writing
• Encourage talented local writers to strive for the highest level of literary skill
• Create a conducive environment for creative thinking and literary expression in Singapore

The SPH-NAC GPA accepts only original and unpublished works. No prior experience in publishing or writing professionally is needed for interested participants.

Windows for Submission: 10 March 2009 to 29 May 2009.

It’s a bi-annual kinda thing, so generally, it happens every odd year. I’ve missed the 2003, 2005 competition due to my belief that my writing sucked, and 2007 when I foolishly thought the competition will start from May-July.

But no… It started from March to May, so I missed the bloody deadline by a few days.

Grrrr…

In any case, though I still think my writing sucked, but I’m still going to go ahead and take part in this competition anyway.

Ever had a rush of adrenaline?

That’s what I’m feeling now!

CHIONG ARH!!!!!!!!

随手写写…

双手迅速地打着键盘，双眼则目不转睛地看着电脑荧幕…

一则电邮顺利寄出，留下只有一股空虚感。

我在做什么？

我看着空荡荡的电邮箱，再看着空白的荧幕。

我在干什么？

耳中听到的是流行音乐，但，我到底是在这里做什么呢？

很多时候，我不知道自己到底在这里有没有什么功用。

或许，只是另一位混日子的白领工罢了。

空虚……除了这个字以外，我也真的不知该如何。

我失去了动力。

留下只有一层层的压力在我头顶。

好累。

身体累，心更累。

Preparing... Preparing... Preparing & TCZ Gathering

His birthday's coming, so I got to prepare...

What am I preparing?

Well...

I'll keep it a secret...

At least, until his birthday's over.

Muahahahahaha~

*~*~*

Anyway, we had a TCZ gathering on Saturday, food at Ding Tai Fung (No pics, due to 5 hungry ghosts) and then nua-session at NUSS pub.

The first time I was there, and well, seeing that my low blood pressure hit the 'normal' range recently, I was on a no-alcohol night..

That is... until I see Hoegarden on the menu. *drool*

So after drinking my Lady Grey tea, I ordered a bottle of the absurdly light beer. *YUM*





Here's a *ahem* "sexy" pose, but there's a story behind it.

Once upon a time, in NUSS Pub, there's a group of friends wanting to request songs. But alas, the waiter didn't see the group of guys and gals raising their hand, so one of the guys suggested that the girl in the comfy-but-loose yellow shirt put down her sleeve to attract the waiter



Like so..

And what do you know, the waiter did come after all!

And the group of friends got their song request and drank happily ever after.

The End.

*ya right*

And after 5 failed attempts at a decent photo, the girl with the comfy-but-loose yellow shirt decides to act cute...

And so...



xD

What a nice contrast, eh?